My Music and the World

One day, I hope to be free, happy, mature and responsible, but that hasn’t happened yet- and I don’t think it’s that way for most North Americans of any generation.  Perhaps some of us are mature, or happy, or both, I think to myself at times, but I rarely meet anyone who isn’t burdened by helplessness or a lack of self awareness.  We all must do our best to be responsible and free the world, but we all (for the most part) seem to lack the means to do it.  To accomplish this, we must first secure our own survival; I believe that the qualities I listed at the beginning of this entry are the necessary tools for survival and personal progress in this modern world.

There are few things that I have personally felt able to do for the world in this lifetime.  A good deed here and a kind word there, I believe, does help in the grand scheme of things, but I have felt powerless to guide or influence any changes in economic, political or environmental affairs.  Most of us have our personal reasons for feeling this way: one might be too ill, too poor or too tired and stressed to concentrate.  One might simply lack the resources or education to accomplish what they would otherwise be able to do.  This has (perhaps always) been a significant problem in our world, and I don’t believe that it can change without the intervention of the one and a half virtuous souls hidden within the burrows of corrupt aristocrats, but I do believe that we, the proletariat can bring that deadline closer to tomorrow if we work together.  The problem with this line of thinking is that just about every egalitarian visionary is anonymous and constantly overwhelmed by the world’s many problems.

To me, it would seem that in order to bring everyone together (for we have been divided and conquered) we must first re-enable compassion, tolerance, courage and self esteem.  That is where we, the overwhelmed and restless, come in.  Even if we haven’t got the time, the funds or the energy to take down corrupt politicians and bankers, it is well within our means and, in my opinion, our utmost responsibility to improve one another.  I do not mean that we should enroll our children into sports activities, or that we need to encourage our spouses to improve their hair styles and financial positions.  What I do mean is that it is time to teach every single young and/or impressionable person (that’s virtually everybody) that treating others with respect, love and kindness is the status quot.  We can do this simply by setting an example.  In order to clarify, I will say that we are not truly a part of the solution to the worlds problems unless we are being kind, merciful and tolerant one hundred percent of the time- regardless of our moods.  This, of course, also requires that we are compassionate and tolerant towards ourselves, and that we do not allow injustice of any kind.

Although most people on the planet have psychological problems, most of us will likely agree that we should always put our children first, even if it is psychologically difficult to do so.  What I ask, is that we bare that in mind whenever another person (especially an impressionable person) is present.  The more people there are who are willing an able to do this, the more our children will start to believe that this is normal behavior.  Aside from this, we must spread our emotional medicines through every other channel available, whenever possible.  If you can do this as a career, it is best, but if not, do it at home, on facebook at a party; we must find ways to be conscious of the examples we are setting so that people can learn to be free, happy, mature and responsible.

There are two (and only two) things that I feel I am truly good at.  One of them is composing music.  My ultimate dream is to soothe and heal the emotionally damaged through my work.  When I sit at my desk, or on my bed, at a piano or a keyboard, I imagine the face of a smiling youth listening to my work, not unlike myself, listening to Nobuo Uematsu’s soundtracks at the age of twelve.  I know that I would never have become a musician, had I not been inspired by the works of other artists, who wished to leave a contribution to humanity.  If I can reach others via my songs, and positively influence their emotional patterns, I will be very pleased!  All I can say to the world is that I hope this will aid in the gradual recovery of our debilitated species, and I hope that I will see it within my lifetime.  I will try my best to do my part, but I hope, whoever you are, that will do it together.